I SOLD MY VIRGINITY
( His royal Excellency)
“Why don’t you trust me?” He asked.
I shouldn’t have said that now he’s going to ask me a butt load of questions I don’t want to answer . “Because I just don’t” I answered truthfully. “I don’t know you all that well, why should I share a part of myself with you when you keep yourself so reserved”
He had a serious face, like he was mad at me but didn’t want to show it. He adjusted his tie and walked toward the door. “Come with me” he said before he walked out.
I was about to say something but
I just followed quietly behind him.
He opened the door for me and I walked in.
“Take a seat” he said as he walked around his desk to sit in is chair.
I obeyed and put my hands in my lap.
“I don’t want to sound rude saying this, but what I do, honestly, is none of your business. I payed for something and I expect to get it with no questions asked. So you have no need to worry about me and anoth-”
“Then take it” I cut him off.
“Don’t interrupt me!” He raised his voice.
His assertiveness is turning me on. It’s making me hot for him and I don’t know why. I like when he’s mean. I meant to be quiet and let him speak but I kept talking.
“No. You’re right you payed for something, so take it. Be a man and take what you want” I said through my teeth. I don’t want to cry in front of him. I want to look tough.
He didn’t say anything. He just gave me a look. A look that said ‘if you don’t take back what you said I’ll rip your throat out’ but I kept my mouth shut and my eyes peeled on him. “I won’t tell you anything you don’t need to know, Joshua, it’s for your own good”
He slightly moved his eyebrow, making me realize that I now have his attention.
“I don’t need you to tell me what’s good for me. That’s not why you’re here”
I looked away from him and started looking around. At all the picture frames with no pictures. Why would he have no pictures? “I don’t feel like arguing, I just want this to be over with” I stand up and walk over to one of them.
“What are you doing?” He asked.
“Why don’t you have any pictures?” I picked it up.
He sighed. “Can we stay on task please?”
I turned around to look at him. “I’m done discussing, are we gonna get this done?” This meaning së—-x.
“No we have a lot to discus-”
“Okay then” I cut him off again. I turned back around and did more looking through his things.
I heard him stand up and I felt something pull me back. “Valentina, why are you being difficult?”
I shrugged. “I’m not, I just want this over with” I slightly yelled. “I don’t wanna be here forever” he just looked at me. I sighed.
“What do you have to go back to, Valentina?!” He shouted. “Your little apartment? Your abusive mother? Your pathetic job?! I’m trying to help you, why can’t you see that? You just don’t know the things your mother has put you up to!”
He’s right I don’t have much, but so what? And what does this have to do with my mother? “What is she doing?” I asked.
“You should talk to her, Valentina, be with her before she dies” his eyes are getting soft again. He’s still hiding something from me, what is it?
“What? She’s not gonna die, why would she die? She’s going through the treatments” he didn’t say anything. He just stared at me. “Why would you say that?” I yelled and pushed his chest. “You’re a d——-k!” I said before I walk out the room and out of the house.
I saw Nate the driver pull up and he opened the door for me. “Where to miss?” He asked.
“My moms” I pulled on my seatbelt and looking out the window while he drove.
I saw him look at me through the mirror a few times but I didn’t speak. I don’t want to talk right now, there’s too much on my mind. My mothers not going to die. She may be a bitch but she deserves to live.
“He said I was gonna die?” She laughed. “I’m not gonna die” she smiled. “I’m invincible”
She’s being nice to me right now. I’ve been here for a few hours helping her clean and cook. She looks good, she’s on her feet a lot more.
My friend John has been checking on her every once in a while. I’ll have to thank him, he’s always been sweet to me. He’s my only friend.
“He’s hiding something, mom” I admit. “I know he is, I just… can’t put it together”
“Stop all that talking and come get some food” she grabbed a plate and started piling it with food.
“Mom I really think you should listen to me” I stood up and grabbed a plate. “He’s so secretive and it scares me”
“No mom I’m really worried, why do you think he wanted me to live with me?”
“So he could have s—-éx with you” she said that like I was dumb.
“That’s not what I mean, I think he’s planning something” I looked at her.
“He might be planning to marry you, Valentina!” She shouted. “Other than that, I don’t care about your conspiracy theories. I’m trying to eat, Joshua is not trying to hurt you or me, so shut up about it” she turned back to her plate and sat at the table saying her prayers then starting to eat.
I stood there watching her eat her nasty food. She can’t even cook good. She made chicken, macaroni and cheese, and collared greens. I don’t even want it.
“Take your food and leave, I have a guest coming”
“Who?” I asked as I turned around and started putting food on my plate.
“None of your business” she said. It’s probably that doctor she was tell me about.
When I was done I wrapped my food in foil and walked to the front door. “Bye I love you” I said to her.
“Love you too” she said. Wow she actually said it this time. “Oh have you been taking your medicine?” She shouted after me.
Shit. I forgot about taking one today. I need to do that as soon as I get home. “Yes I have”
“Make sure your taking it everyday, Valentina. We don’t want an accident like last time”
“I know” I yelled back and closed the door. I don’t want to think about that right now. It was a scary time.
I walk to the car and Nate opens he door for me. He gets in the drivers seat and starts driving.
“Nate can I ask you something?” I say.
“Yes Miss Valentina?”
“Has Joshua ever done anything… bad?”
“How bad, Miss Valentina?”
“I don’t know, anything life changing?”
He was quiet for a few seconds until he answered slowly. “No Miss Valentina, you are very safe here. You have nothing to be worried about”
I trust Nate, i have since I first met him. He’s married, he has a kid and seems very reliable. “Okay” I sigh.
Feeling a little better, we pull up to the house and Nate let’s me out. It’s very late, around midnight. Joshua might be sleeping.
I walk in the house and put the food I got from my mothers in the fridge. Then I head upstairs to awake the beast.
I slowly open the door and the lights are on. I hear the shower running, it stopped as soon as I took off my shoes.
“You’re back” a deep voice boomed behind me.
“Yea” I say as I grab my suitcase and look for my medicine.
“How was everything with your mother?”
“Fine. She looks good”
“Good” I look up at him and he’s dripping wet, with a towel hung low on his body.
I grab my water bottle and take a big gulp, swallowing the pill. “I’m gonna take a shower” I said and walked past him into the bathroom.
“Valentina” he grabbed my arm. “I don’t want us to fight, it’s foolish”
“You’re right, and I’m sorry for what I said earlier” I apologized.
“Don’t be sorry, you were right, I am a dick and I’m sorry. You’re mothers not going to die, she’s going to be fine”
“Thank you Joshua” I said and scurried to take my shower. I closed the door and turned on the water.
He doesn’t scare me, he just worries me. I feel like I can’t trust him because he’s so secretive, and my mother ignores how I feel. Maybe I’m just in over my head, worrying about this I don’t need to worry about.
I hope he doesn’t want to marry me. I don’t want to be married, all that’s too it is yelling and fighting and having kids then getting divorced.
After my shower I checked to see if Joshua was asleep but he was up and he was reading my book. I grabbed my lotion off the dresser and sat on the bed, rubbing it into my body. “Is it good?” I asked him.
“Yea, but I don’t get it” he started. “How can a stripper find love and keep her job?” He bit his nails.
“That’s what she’s trying to figure out” i chuckled.
“Hmm” he nodded and closed the book.
I put the top on my lotion and placed it back on the dresser.
“I’m sorry, Valentina” I feel the warmth of a breath tickle my neck, and warm hands travel down my arms. I didn’t realize he had gotten out of the bed.
I turn around and I’m face to face with Joshua. He’s so close to me I could kiss him. His minty breath is so inviting, his chiseled chest is so comforting.
“I-i already told you it’s okay” I stuttered. Him being this close and this sexy is making me nervous in ways I don’t think I should explain.
“I feel as if it’s not. I want things to calm down between us, Valentina. I don’t want to get a hard head with you”
I shyly looked away from him. “I understand, Joshua” I bit my lip.
He lifted my chin, with his warm fingers and placed his warm lips on mine. I opened my mouth slightly to let his tongue slide in, touching mine.
This is the first I’ve been this close to him. This is the first I’ve kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my wá—–ist and pulled me close to him.
I don’t even know why I was mad at him in the first place. I feel so safe in his arms, his security for just one second will keep me safe for a life time.
I hope that he knows this. That I care about him, way more than I thought I would, that I not only like this. But I like him.