HEART OF A BEAST
(Love is the word)
BY BLESSING SILVER
Melvin walked past me, I caught a glimpse of his red face and knuckles before the tears.
A pang of pity rushed through me.. Wow.. This must be pretty bad for him..
I wonder what he was talking about to Clara that made him feel so angry..
I walked to her, she was still on the spot where she had stood and talked to Melvin, her lower lip was sucked in and she bit on it..
“Did something happen between you two.. Melvin looked angry” I asked her, not being able to hide my curiosity.
“No.. Nothing at all,” she smiled. “He just asked me for a favor. I guess he’s really sad about Ryan’s death and it’s making him angry” she said.
“By the way, I’ve been searching for you. Work’s about to begin” she said.
I glanced back but caught no sight of Melvin, I sighed, nodded to Clara and followed her to class.
The street felt like hot coal as I walked on it to the cave, I was invisible and I couldn’t even let myself think properly..
It was as if even the street had rejected me.. I could only see the hatred in the people I passed by. I shut my eyes but no tears fell. My heart was shattered, that’s if I still have one but right now I knew I was tired and fed up.
I can’t continue this life.. It’s been eight years already, eight years living this disgusting and tiring life.. Eight years trying to get used to my new self and assure myself every single day that it’ll all come to an end soon.. Eight years of trusting in something that was never even there..
If this was how it’ll all end then why wait until it comes when I can just make it easier and brief. The first plan after I had my first kill eight years ago was to end it all myself but Belle had been with me, made me feel human and also made me understand that none of this was my fault.. She had given me that hope and was always there to cover my trail..
But after this, after seeing all those anger and hatred, after experiencing it a second time, which is even more painful considering how close I’ve gotten with some of the students.. I don’t think I’m ready to take this in anymore.
“Melvin” I looked up to see Belle, she had a concerned look and without an offer I rushed into her arms and hugged her..
I couldn’t cry but I was pained and she felt it.
“It’s okay son. Everything will be fine, I promise you” she said and pulled away, she led me to the cave and we sat on a log.
“I can’t do this anymore, Belle” I told her and she gave me a small smile.
“I understand,” she said. “But it doesn’t change anything. You can’t let Lucinda de-
“I know Belle. But it’s what I want. I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t, maybe this is really my fate. It was meant to end this way anyways” I said and she picked my palm, giving it a light squeeze.
“Melvin-” she shook her head.
“No Belle. I have a short time left to live and I don’t think Kay will be helping anytime soon.. Not that I need it anymore because I’ve already made my decision, I can’t continue this way. I can’t let more innocent people get hurt because of me..” I w€t my lips, giving it another thought, I shook my head. “I don’t want to exist anymore” I ruffled out..
“Thanks for everything Annabelle, I love you and I’m sorry for this. I hope you understand”
“Oh.. son” Belle pulled me into another hug. “It’ll be fine..”
She kept assuring.. As always but I’m done living in false hope.
School ended early and Clara and I part ways.. I walked to the station and used the bus home.. I got home and met an empty house.. Well, since the beast is involved, mom should be very busy on the case..
I thought about Melvin again, he’s been on my mind all through and I can’t help but feel really sad for him..
Heaven knows what he should be doing right now.
I walked to the table, heading to my room but I stopped at it when my gaze caught a glimpse of mom’s open pad.. I picked it up and flipped through a page, almost immediately my gaze took in the content and my brows lowered deeply at it..
“Hey, you’re back-” mom walked out from the storage room and her eyes lingered on the pad in my possession. She snatched it from me and kept it away.
“You’re back early. How was school?” She asked.
“Dry and heartbreaking because of the student we lost whom we thought was killed by the beast,” I said. “Why did you lie, mom?” I asked her, holding my bag straps.
“I didn’t lie” she said..
“You said Ryan was killed by the beast, it’s right there in your pad. You made it up” I said.
“It’s the truth” she said.
“No it’s not mom, Ryan wasn’t killed by the beast.. He was killed by a careless driver, I saw it happen.. It was me who called the paramedics from your zone” I said and she sighed lowly.
“I didn’t lie, hon. I just had to do what has to be done” she said.
“What has to be done?” I repeated “you just put a crime on someone, you framed an innocent person!”
“It’s not Innocent, okay? He has killed people too.. What difference does this make?” She said.
“Wow.. I can’t believe you’d do this mom? How can you make the whole town believe that Ryan was killed by the beast? How can you do this to a guiltless person?”
“Guiltless? He has taken lives too? He’s a terror and a beast.. He’s a heartless being! I have a motive for doing this” she said.
“Of course, And what if it doesn’t work?”
“It will. I have a good feeling, it’ll work” she said, rubbing her knuckles.
“And Ryan? What happens to him after that?” I asked and her gaze shot up to me. “What he needs is justice mom, he’s the victim here.. What his family and his corpse should be getting is justice. What you should be doing is helping them get it not putting your interest before it” I said and mom sighed.
“What happened to the teachings, you taught me not to make anyone feel bad because of me, you taught me to always support the right thing no matter what.. What happened to it?” I asked.
Mom nodded and walked towards me..
“Just think about how Mel- I mean the beast must be feeling right now, think about Ryan too.. This is wrong” I said.
“Honey,” mom called calmly. “You’re right but if I catch this beast then I’ll be getting justice for everyone, not just your schoolmate. Think about everyone it has hurt and those it’ll hurt in the future, I’m doing this for everyone, baby. Think of Tracy” she said and I w€t my lips.
I was quiet for a moment, I raised my brows up at her.
“What if it Tracy wasn’t killed by the beast..
“What will you do about that?” I suddenly said and mom frowned.
“What?” She asked with a blank expression.